I've been invited to go on tour - the Creative Blog Tour - and you're invited to come too! Let's hear it for Square-Pegs on Tour!!
First stop: Feral Compass Living, internet home of my friend, Kimberley McGill - she's the one who issued the invitation. Kimberley writes from her huge and open heart - I love her writing and I bet YOU will too! Come see (click on the link above) how Kimberley responds to the Creative Blog questions.
Here we go (Square-Pegs on Tour). I've got this visual of a country fair - we're all there - which is cool, except now I want a funnel cake, sigh:
What are you working on now?
In the writing realm: I'm rebirthing a guide for accessing support. I'm excited about it because 1) it helps me remember 2) it's really relevant - who doesn't need support?
In its first incarnation it was small - part of a larger class; in this incarnation it's shaping up to be a week-long experience with video and audio as well as written word.
I'm also working on finalizing a memoir piece to submit to Creative Nonfiction magazine.
And, though this doesn't involve working on a specific project, it's important for my future work: I'm doing more organizational/system placement stuff so that what I write gets finished.
Because I'm always writing (even when it doesn't make it out of my head), but not always finishing up and sharing what I've written.
In other realms: one of the background systems things I'm working on is PLAY. Yep, play! Without that element in my life I wind up wearing poop-colored glasses (the opposite of rose-colored glasses).
Since taking a class on Practice with Lisa Hofmann (who I see is also on this creative blog tour) I've been working on bringing play into my life every day.
For me that means making time for textiles: knitting, crocheting, sewing, embroidery; combinations of knitting, sewing, crocheting, embroidery…
Playing with color - ohhhh, color! I picked up watercolors again recently - with no intention of learning to paint, just for play.
How is your work unique?
My work is unique in the ways that I'm unique. And I am unique; I'm a snowflake. We all are!
My work is Squarepegian (ok, might've made that one up) - trickster like - deep, yet often funny (or at least fun) because I'm a depth-diver - and I'm goofy. My work (and I) often ask: "Why?" and sometimes, "Why not?" - we ask, but not always obviously (we like to invoke thought).
In my young years I was shy (and Introverted, Highly Sensitive as well - which wasn't comfortable back then, but now - oh NOW! wouldn't change any of it for the world) which caused me to hide, watch, and listen - somewhat like a fly on the wall (but, you know - bigger).
During that time I learned a lot about deep listening - hearing what's behind words - about feeding my curiosity - and about STORY. And I found out that I look at things a bit differently than most folks.
All that (and a zillion other things that make up who I am) comes into my work - which is why it's unique (as YOURs is!).
Why do you create what you do?
I write what I do because I need what I write.
I need encouragement - reminders that we're all vulnerable - and imperfect - and wonderfully, completely deserving of love just as we are.
I need stories; they're heart-fuel for me (and have been for my entire life). I grew up listening to - and seeking - story. I want to share stories from my heart - stories of realness - stories that say: "See, it's not just you - we're all in this together!" (and to remind myself of this).
I create - and always have (ok, not when I was in the cradle) - with thread and cloth, needles, bits of paper, beads, and yarn because I adore beauty and want to add my bit to the mix, even when it's unfinished or blemished beauty.
I create to express myself…
I create, and I write, to share grace, because it's been shared with me. My creations, in which/whatever form, are my way to pass that on.
How does your process work?
My process works best when I'm consistent.
That's how my process works best, but that's not how I always work it (double sigh).
My best writing is done in the early morning - and I attempt to do this (operative word: attempt).
Also, I need lots of internal stimulation; I don't work well when I have only one project going at a time - I get bored, depressed.
So my process involves having lots of balls in the air at the same time. But that can get a bit tricky - what begins as internal stimulation can wind up as overwhelm or worse (the draw of the dramatic: sooooo much going on - oh oh oh - what will I do? Oh, I've got the vapors. grumble, bitch, snarl.).
It's easy to loose track of a ball or two when there are all those balls in the air at the same time - it's also easy to have my attention drawn to another (shiny - oooh) ball I just have to play with (even when I've hit the max). So - balance (of the Square-Peg variety, which doesn't mean balance so much as noticing). Noticing is good for my process.
Process particulars, hmmmm. I kinda follow my nose. Most of my writing is in response/connection to something I've seen or heard (there needs to be an emotional pull of some kind). Also, most of what I write (when I'm in serious writing mode, as opposed to quick, off-the-cuff Facebook updates or the like) is nothing like what it started as. And that's good! But I hate it!! A lot!!!
As I work on getting clear in my communication, hone my craft, aim to tell my story true, I come up against (sigh of all sighs) the fucked annoyingness of words. The way they are incomplete - don't get the point across - or get the wrong point across. Their enormous limitations - even when we speak the same heart language.
My process involves a lot of that noticing thing I mentioned above* - noticing where what I wanted to say isn't coming through the words, which often leads to reexamining what it was I wanted to say, which is where I go deeper into whatever I'm writing (and into internal processing - reexamining ideas, asking myself deeper questions and listening for deeper answers) - and often have to toss the first bunch of (many hours of) work. Sometimes though, when I brush off the coal dust, I find diamonds (sometimes teeny, tiny - ok, miniscule - diamonds - but hey, diamonds!). I love sharing diamonds!
Next stops: I've asked a few lovely people to take the next leg of the tour - Crys Williams has graciously accepted (she was invited by someone else as well - so she's double invited!) - and I'll let you know tour locations as I hear from others.
*My noticing is greatly enhanced by discussions and editing work with/by Slightly-British Daughter.
Check it out! Kelly Gill accepted my Creative Blog Tour invitation - you can read her wonderful contribution here: Let Creativity Dawn.